Splendid Mayhem: A Mess! AKA Logen!

Welcome To Holland

I am often asked to describe the experience of raising a child with a disability - to try to help people who have not shared that unique experience to understand it, to imagine how it would feel. It's like this......
When you're going to have a baby, it's like planning a fabulous vacation trip - to Italy. You buy a bunch of guide books and make your wonderful plans. The Coliseum. The Michelangelo David. The gondolas in Venice. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It's all very exciting.
After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags and off you go. Several hours later, the plane lands. The stewardess comes in and says, "Welcome to Holland."
"Holland?!?" you say. "What do you mean Holland?? I signed up for Italy! I'm supposed to be in Italy. All my life I've dreamed of going to Italy."
But there's been a change in the flight plan. They've landed in Holland and there you must stay.
The important thing is that they haven't taken you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place, full of pestilence, famine and disease. It's just a different place.
So you must go out and buy new guide books. And you must learn a whole new language. And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met.
It's just a different place. It's slower-paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy. But after you've been there for a while and you catch your breath, you look around.... and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills....and Holland has tulips. Holland even has Rembrandts.
But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy... and they're all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there. And for the rest of your life, you will say "Yes, that's where I was supposed to go. That's what I had planned."
And the pain of that will never, ever, ever, ever go away... because the loss of that dream is a very very significant loss.
But... if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn't get to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things ... about Holland.

Thursday, June 28, 2007

A Mess! AKA Logen!

Parker has recently decided to try this whole crawling thing. He's up on his hands a knees more and more each day. (Still no movement other than rocking, besides and army crawl). Logen thinks he can ride his brother. So, every time he notices that Parker is up on hands and knees, you can bet Logen will be sitting on him, jumping! In the last hour, I've had to remove Logen from his brother atleast 5 times! Being a mommy to 2 children definitely keeps ya on your toes!!! (Being a mom to one did to though!)

~ I think Logen is trying to "make friends" with me again- he just crawled up on the couch and feel alseep on my shoulder while typing this! How sweet, I wish I could reach the camra! It's on the coffee table... Maybe I can with my feet! I'll post pics if I can manage to get the camera ~

3 comments:

AnonymousJune 29, 2007 at 1:40 PM
HA you better have that camera ready when Parker man starts to hump the floor like Bella did when she was learning to crawl-it is hilarious!!! If that lil stink beats Bella to crawling (she didn't start til 8mos), he gets a big ol sloppy cupcake!!!
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AnonymousJuly 12, 2007 at 12:46 PM
jessica i can tell u wrote tht cause thts just you!!! the camera and toes thing neways!!!i cant believe parkers already tryin to crawl!!lol i love you lots !!
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 >3 <3 <3
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AnonymousJuly 12, 2007 at 12:48 PM
the anonymous person was ur sister!!!
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