Splendid Mayhem: The 'Roids Are Driving Us CrAzY!!!

Welcome To Holland

I am often asked to describe the experience of raising a child with a disability - to try to help people who have not shared that unique experience to understand it, to imagine how it would feel. It's like this......
When you're going to have a baby, it's like planning a fabulous vacation trip - to Italy. You buy a bunch of guide books and make your wonderful plans. The Coliseum. The Michelangelo David. The gondolas in Venice. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It's all very exciting.
After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags and off you go. Several hours later, the plane lands. The stewardess comes in and says, "Welcome to Holland."
"Holland?!?" you say. "What do you mean Holland?? I signed up for Italy! I'm supposed to be in Italy. All my life I've dreamed of going to Italy."
But there's been a change in the flight plan. They've landed in Holland and there you must stay.
The important thing is that they haven't taken you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place, full of pestilence, famine and disease. It's just a different place.
So you must go out and buy new guide books. And you must learn a whole new language. And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met.
It's just a different place. It's slower-paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy. But after you've been there for a while and you catch your breath, you look around.... and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills....and Holland has tulips. Holland even has Rembrandts.
But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy... and they're all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there. And for the rest of your life, you will say "Yes, that's where I was supposed to go. That's what I had planned."
And the pain of that will never, ever, ever, ever go away... because the loss of that dream is a very very significant loss.
But... if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn't get to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things ... about Holland.

Monday, June 4, 2007

The 'Roids Are Driving Us CrAzY!!!

AGGGGGGGG......... I needed to get that one out! The steriods are making me nuts! Logen is soooo crabby, irritable, clingy, whiney, restless, etc! He fought and fought us with bed time last night. And, his little eyes were so black! I know he was exhausted. He finally went to bed after 10pm. Then, was up from 4 to 6:30. And, woke up for good by 8am! So unlike him! He usually sleeps until 10ish! So, 8 was a killer. I've been up since 4 (Adam left at 630, Parker was up nursing- it's been nonstop somebody needs Mom for something since 4).
He will be off the meds Wednesday- and it usually takes a day or so for the meds to get out of his system. Oh, man am I going to be a major grump by the end of the week!
If you wouldn't mind-- say a prayer for my sanity! And, of course, for Logen to stop having all the lovely side effects of drugs.... haha.

1 comment:

Andrea "The H family"June 4, 2007 at 11:39 PM
Yes girl...just prayed! I have to say...when I read your title..I started laughing...I thought you meant the 'other' word.

However..yes, I hate the ROIDS as well! Hope you get some sleep sweetie,
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