THANK YOU

To those of you who have sent emails, texts, or calls. To check on me and tell me how much you love me. To tell me that I have changed your life in some way or another. I cannot tell you how much even a short "I am thinking about you" email means to me right now. I have sat down and actually cried happy tears b/c I am so overwhelmed that there are people out there (and even ones who have never met me) that love me and care if I am alive. So, if I don't respond to your individual emails right now- I'm sure you know why. Just know, every kind word you've sent means the world to me right now. I am so glad to be out of 'my hell' and happy to be back at home. I am still afraid to be alone, I am scared of things I might think. At this point, I don't think about death as often, just that it might be easier 'not here'. I also know that my children need me. And, for that simple reason- I couldn't hurt myself where it's final. It is wonderful to beable to check my email, blog, phone, etc and know you care. I cannot thank you enough.