Splendid Mayhem: Starting Pre School Round 2!

Welcome To Holland

I am often asked to describe the experience of raising a child with a disability - to try to help people who have not shared that unique experience to understand it, to imagine how it would feel. It's like this......
When you're going to have a baby, it's like planning a fabulous vacation trip - to Italy. You buy a bunch of guide books and make your wonderful plans. The Coliseum. The Michelangelo David. The gondolas in Venice. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It's all very exciting.
After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags and off you go. Several hours later, the plane lands. The stewardess comes in and says, "Welcome to Holland."
"Holland?!?" you say. "What do you mean Holland?? I signed up for Italy! I'm supposed to be in Italy. All my life I've dreamed of going to Italy."
But there's been a change in the flight plan. They've landed in Holland and there you must stay.
The important thing is that they haven't taken you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place, full of pestilence, famine and disease. It's just a different place.
So you must go out and buy new guide books. And you must learn a whole new language. And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met.
It's just a different place. It's slower-paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy. But after you've been there for a while and you catch your breath, you look around.... and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills....and Holland has tulips. Holland even has Rembrandts.
But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy... and they're all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there. And for the rest of your life, you will say "Yes, that's where I was supposed to go. That's what I had planned."
And the pain of that will never, ever, ever, ever go away... because the loss of that dream is a very very significant loss.
But... if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn't get to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things ... about Holland.

Sunday, January 6, 2008

Starting Pre School Round 2!

Hey Blog Family!

Do you remember last time I said, Logen's going to school?! Yea, that didn't work out to well! Well, tomorrow we are trying again! Our school district has FINALLY opened a pre-k with ALL certified teachers! And teaching assistants in each room. The max is 20 kids per room and each room has children ages 3 to 5. Orientation was Friday night and I felt very good about it. His teachers were great. One of them even worked for the Sunshine School (a school for disabled children). There is onsite therapy (we won't be using them b/c we get private), but it makes me feel better that IF something arises, the therapists there are avaliable. They will also have a special ed class, IF Logen needs that. It's set up like a 'mini' school, so he wouldn't go in there all the time- if he goes at all. I'll let you all know how it goes on his very first day. Say a huge prayer for us in the AM! I am so not going to sleep tonight!